It’s never something that someone wants to hear, that you need be admitted to the hospital. The first few hours in my room I felt very emotional. I’m sick in a foreign country, and I’m scared. You know that you’re in the best possible place but it’s hard to focus on being positive when you feel as bad as you do. That night, when I was laying in my bed taking meds from my oxygen mask, I closed my eyes and started praying. I said God, let’s work a miracle so all the glory can go back you. As I was praying this, I got a vision of an eye. I knew immediately that it was for me. I felt like it was the Lord saying to me, “I see you.” Instead of questioning it like I always do, I just started speaking into it. “Yeah Lord, you do see me. I’m far from home, in a hospital bed choking on my coughs but you still see me.” I started focusing on the eye and it was a little reminder that the Lord was watching over me. I started thinking of thoughts that the Lord would be saying to me.
…”I see you
…I’m here with you
…You’re not alone
…Trust in me
…I Am.”
Instead of wanting complete miraculous healing I had confidence in knowing that as long as I was sick, that it was all in his timing. I didn’t know what He was going to do with it but I just had to have faith. Trying not to listen to any lie from the devil, I began listing things in my mind I was thankful for. One of them being, thankful that I was in the hospital! I’m am so thankful to have help, a doctor, treatment, food, a bed, etc. It wasn’t long after that when I started focusing less on myself and “my” problems and I started thinking of the world around me. I began to pray for the people in the hospital, the employees, doctors, everyone and every room. With me, I know in due time, I’ll be back out again and have my freedom, but I started thinking of people who don’t have that choice. So, I’m not sure what the Lord is teaching me through this, but I definitely always love to get a perspective change and I loved getting to pray for people who I don’t even know. Life is ministry, and ministry is life, you just only have to be open to see it.
