You know that book Goodnight moon by Margaret Wise Brown? I
feel like I’m living that book except I’m saying goodbye and to those I love. (ok…so maybe its not that similar) Every goodbye has looked slightly different.
Having now said goodbye to my college town, friends, boyfriend, roommates, best
friend, childhood friends, my church, supporters, and mentors I still don’t
know how to say goodbye. What do you say to someone you love and won’t see for
11 months? See you later doesn’t seem to cut it.
Saying goodbye has been the hardest thing about this race.
It’s also been the sweetest. It reminds me how blessed I am to have so many
people in my life that love me. Tomorrow I will say goodbye to my family. My parents truly are my biggest fans. In fact…my
dad is out buying hot dogs because it feels very American and very fitting to
be one of my last meals in the state. J
My heart is not torn but it is sad today. I will follow God
to where he has called me and I know this is part of the price. But with each
tearful goodbye I also smile for each teardrop is only formed because of the
love that is behind hind it.
So tomorrow I will head for New York. Wednesday I will head
to the Ukraine. It’s always a weird feeling to be on the last page of a chapter
of your life. I’m not quite sure if I
should linger and savor the last few words or hurry through it to discover what
happens in the next. Either way this chapter of my life is ending and while a fabulous
new one will begin I will grieve the closing of this amazing one.
So… goodbye comfy bed, goodbye good tex-mex food, goodbye
friends, goodbye family, goodbye roomies, goodbye conner, goodbye supporters,
goodbye mom, goodbye dad …I wouldn’t be the woman I am today without you! Love
you all!
In Him,
Elle
And my prayer…
“DEAR JESUS,
help me to spread Thy fragrance everywhere I go.
Flood my soul with Thy spirit and love.
Penetrate and possess my whole being so utterly
that all my life may only be a radiance of Thine.
Shine through me and be so in me that every soul I come in contact with
may feel Thy presence in my soul.
Let them look up and see no longer me but only Jesus.
Stay with me and
then I shall begin to shine as you shine,
so to shine as to be a light to others.”
