Back in Nairobi and getting ready to take off to Tanzania/Africa with a new team. These past few months have been tough, but the Lord has showed me more of His heart during this time of pain and the harder it got the more I leaned on Him. I have learned so many things from my old team and teammates. God put us on this team of women to grow with one another and acknowledging we had some of the same types of wounding in common. That was Gods first step of inner healing for us and it had to take the seven of us women to go through all the trials that we went through to get where we are now. I have learned the last four months to rely on God more than ever in my life and that’s how I want to live for the rest of my life. I want to lean on Him at all times.
I have a new team, new leader and a new finance person and new teammates……. One of things I keep thinking is I get to start over with my new team!! These past few months I have been asking God for more of Him and more of a challenge. I know I’m going to be pushed on this team spiritually and emotionally and I’m excited about it!! I love how God prepares and prepares and then makes the changes and sometimes it does not make sense to us what’s going on, but He always reveals it at the perfect time and in this case it was in Africa. I love it when He does that!!! There has been a ton of grieving in this time of change the past few days since this took place and everyone is grieving differently than one another and that is okay. How many times in our lives do we feel that we have to have everything together all the time??? Well that is just a lie from satan. That is one of the things that I have learned being on the race is how to grieve things and leaving every country there is always a time for grieving with the amazing relationships we build with these people. So grieving is just a healthy part of life that should always take place instead of letting it build up into other feelings.
My feelings about changing teams are much different than I thought they would be. We knew this was going to happen a month ago, but honestly I did not know what to expect I just wanted change because that’s when you grow. When they announced our team a few days ago I was so happy and excited and ready for the next level that the Lord is going to take me and this team. Every time I get together with them to pray or have a meeting God just keeps giving me REJOICE just like that in bold letters. I have so much joy in my heart right now for this team and cannot wait to get to know everyone’s heart for God and minister with them.
