Ecclesiastes 5:3
“As a dream comes when there are many cares, so the speech
of a fool when there are many words.”
God brought inner healing in so many situations in China
to my heart…. … So the night of 11/19/08
I kept tossing and turning from a stomach ach and finally could not take it and
got up to throw up. I did not want to
wake anyone up so I went next door to use the bathroom at the international
church that we were staying by and served at. The pastor and his wife would leave
the door opened for us just in case we needed to use the bathrooms or
showers. As I was kneeling down at the
toilet with my head down the Lord started speaking to me about so many things I
needed to repent of. One of the issues
the Lord brought to my attention or to the light was having things as my
idol. This has been coming up so much
lately in my life and never once thought twice that maybe the Lord not only was
giving me words for other people in my life about this but me also.
Jeremiah 8:13
“I will take away their harvest, declares the Lord. There will be no grapes on the vine. There will be no figs on tree, and their
leaves will wither. What I have given
them will be taken from them.”
So I am allowing God to take this burden off of my heart and
am speaking out in the light. One of the
many personal struggles that I have dealt with in china was taking food and
weight as my idol. God is slowly healing
me of this, but is no longer being put in my life as an idol. I have had problems with food and weight
since I was young. I have always had an
issue with self image over the years and was out of hand in China. Well at 1:40 AM kneeling down on my knees sick
with my head in the toilet God convicted of me and my obsession with food and
weight and then the Lord told me that He wanted me to fast from food until Hong
Kong, which I had no idea how long before we got to Hong Kong from
Beijing. This was one of the most
amazing things God did for me and I feel like for once this issue is finally
seeing the light with still much work with Gods help. I have fasted so many times, but this time
has been different then most fasts and very powerful than any other. I ended up being more intimate with Him
through this precious time in my life.
God’s power is working like crazy in my life. I feel as though every time a piece of me
that gets released that I have more and more to offer to God’s children.
1Corinthians 8,9
