That’s how I feel right now. My heart aches for the people in this world that are lost and hungry. I have to admit that I am having a terrible time in Kenya. I know ministry is not supposed to be easy, but I really did not think I could get so frustrated this much. I know out of the 11 months that I’m gone that it was not going to be easy and I know that there are inner healing issues to rise to deal with, but this many? I have done some pretty hard things this month and I have to say that I’m waiting for that breakthrough to happen. God has been so faithful in every trial I have in my life and trust me I have had twenty eight years of trials and God has been faithful in everyone of them. So this is going to be fun to tell stories about the trials in Kenya. I definitely have been learning so much about me this month and how I deal with stress. I’m saying that with a smile really!!!! I have not even written about everything yet that has happened here just because I’m still processing so you will be getting more blogs don’t worry. I would have to say that this month I feel like Job. I am reading that right now and I keep asking God when is the breakthrough going to happen, but He is just telling me to be patient and I am excited for the breakthrough at the end of the tunnel.
The first Sunday in El Doret I attended a church that is amazing where we are serving this month. Most of the congregation is street kids that have nothing and they sniff glue to take their hunger pains away. I never knew what it was like to feel helpless not to be able to help these kids until coming here and not able to give them anything because we don’t have anything to give, but we can give Gods love which is so much. I have gone through some major emotions during this and it’s not directed towards them but the situation. Why do we have to hurt and hurt others with the decisions we choose??? I have gone through some major pain growing up before God healed me with my father being a drug addict and all the problems that came being a little girl and seeing and living with that, but I know that every situation we are supposed to glorify God no matter what and so yeah that situation was hard but healing from that and leaving it in the past was the best thing ever and these kids need hope! They do they need some kind of hope! So even though I’m having a hard time in Kenya right now but God has brought me here for a reason and maybe it is to bring breakthroughs to some of these kids. Wow I’m just typing this and thinking out loud and it just dawned on me that I should tell this story to these children so they know that they are not alone in this world.
YES…..we are having a “crusade” next week and that is when I can speak Gods truth in the situation. There always is a light at the end of the tunnel. So I am just asking God to bring some breakthroughs through some of these children’s lives.
Mom and Dad if your reading this you’re amazing parents!!! I love you guys!!!
