I knew that going on this journey would include my heart being refined… But I could never Have anticipated what The Lord has been revealing to me.
To be honest I have been scared to blog. As silly as this may sound… It's the truth. I am not scared of people knowing what has been going in the past two months. I am scared that when I try to write it down it will not be adequate. I'm scared that I might misspell things or use incorrect grammar. I'm scared that my words won't be as profound or impactful as someone else's. I'm scared of doing it wrong and letting everyone down.
This very fear is what has driven so many different parts of my life. I have found myself feeling inadequate In so many different things, big or small… Everything from feeling unable to be good daughter to feeling unable to write a good blog.
The Lord has begun to show me what it truly means to be his daughter. He has said over and over that he delights in me and that I am adequate…enough… And even intricately designed. I have been learning to live boldly, embracing the gifts that He has given me to use for His glory. I finally want to start walking in that truth and stop living in fear; accepting that I have been wonderfully made.
Sooooo… now that i am finally ready, here is a quick update on the last two months.
I spent the majority of my time in Guatemala working at an orphanage called "Casa de Mi Padre" (My Father's house). My team helped paint different parts of the house and was able to spend some time with kids during the day while we worked. It was very clear that the kids were welcomed there as sons and daughters rather than orphans. The home was truly a place where they could take ownership and be a family. It was a really cool picture of how the Lord desires for us to feel a part of His family. During our first month he blessed our time together as a team and allowed us to start out this journey growing close as a family of sisters.
We have spent the last two weeks in Tegucigalpa, Honduras with a ministry called "Zion's Gate". The ministry here is unlike anything I have ever experienced. During the mornings my teams helps out on the property and in the afternoon we have the opportunity to go and spend times with "street kids". Tony, the man who runs this ministry takes us into a neighborhood where he has already begun to build relationships. The people there live in the dump and have next to nothing. Most of them do drugs or use paint thinner which helps with the hunger but this is not our focus.
Our focus is building relationships. We spend a few hours getting to hang out, play soccer and just be with these people. Over the past few years Tony has taken in about 10 different boys who have decided that they do not want to live this way anymore. The Lord has used him to bring, hope, love and truth into their lives. He does not force any sort of lifestyle on these people, but rather goes in and meets them where they are. His presence has provided a way for these boys to find hope. It is the most amazing picture of how God works in our lives. He gently pursues us in whatever walk of life we are in and longs to provide hope, love and purpose.
We have such an amazing Father and creator. I am so thankful to have the opportunity to watch him call out to his people and claim them as sons and daughters. I am even more thankful that to grow in my understanding of what this means for my life and cannot wait to see what else He has in store.
