Trusting, trusting, and more trusting is something that the Lord has been working on me. It is easy to trust for things I cannot see. Or at least it has been over the past few years. Perhaps, though that is not entirely true. I can trust some things to be true, but to see results is a litte more difficult to believe.
(Hopefully you can follow me well enough in my rambling thought processes and hopefully you finish reading the words that I type.)
What is trust? Selah
Lately I have had to trust in God and know that He knows exactly what He is doing. Even when to me I am at a loss for words. My brain attempts to conjure up an idea as to what He may be doing, but it is only an idea and likely not at all what He is doing. So trusting in Him is all I can really do and continue to thank Him for whatever it is He is doing.
In the past week I have questioned where I will be the following week. Home, Africa, or somewhere in between but I am reminded once again that I am NOT in control. In that trust I am constantly being challenged as well. My pride has been brought to my attention and the lack of trust that I have in men, and by that I mean all people. I do trust people I assure you of this. However, I don't trust them as well.
I trust in the ways of telling secrets, but only the surface ones that most people could already guess to be true. It is those deep dark secrets that are harder to make their way out. Those secrets that require you to prode, stab and literally pull at your soul and bring it to light. Those are the secrets I do not trust people with.
You would pretend to not relate, but I am certain everyone knows exactly what I am talking about. Unless I am crazy as Nigel has been telling me.
Those deep secrets are the ones the Lord is bringing up time and time again. That are just bubbling to the surface and that give no choice but to share with others. Frustrating I know, but what freedom it continues to bring.
Psalm 56:4 "In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid.."
Psalm 57:2 "I cry out to God Most High, to God, who fulfills His purpose for me."
