I expect this trip to take me to the end of my rope. I expect it will pull me out of myself. I expect to learn and grow.
Because I expect these things, I am a little nervous. College is simple and pretty easy for me, it’s the life I am used to and the life I know. Studying random subjects, falling asleep in class, writing papers last minute, I’m used to that. Thinking about doing something else is a little scary.
I expect to be surprised. I expect to be frustrated. I expect to be exhilarated.
Because I expect these things, I fall to my knees and cry out to God every day to prepare my heart. I want to want His glory more than anything else. And I know it’s the only way I will come out of this trip rejoicing.
These months as I prepare for the trip are going to be full of expectation. Full of worrying, anticipating, working and praying. I am spending hours at the gym daily working to be physically fit for this trip. I am spending hours working at my several jobs earning money for the trip. I am trying to humble myself to spend more and more time praying, putting all of this into God’s hands and relying on Him.
I hope that in this time of expectations I will learn and grow as well. I hope I won’t put working for God’s glory on the backburner until I am overseas. I am leaving soon, but I am here right now. And I pray that I will throw myself into my life in Louisville, Kentucky and blessing the people around me.
