Thailand has been hard. It’s hard seeing women throw themselves at men. It’s hard seeing men look at these women like they’re objects and take full advantage of them. It’s hard seeing men act like nothing is wrong with what they’re doing. It’s hard seeing women get all dressed up just to wait to see who they will be with that night. It’s sucks, and I didn’t know what to do with all of these thoughts storming in my head.
In Cambodia, when we would walk by the bars an see the girls showing themselves off out front I would instantly feel like bawling. When we would pass a man who is inspecting these women, I would become enraged. It honestly just pissed me off. I had so much hatred and anger for the men (Johns) who are looking to take advantage of all of these people God created. I can’t count how many times I just wanted to walk up to one of them and just be like, “Dude, seriously?! What the hell are you doing?! This amazing woman is worth so much more than you taking advantage of her! How would you feel if a woman you loved was used like this every night? Get the heck out of here and check yourself!” There would probably be some more words and harsher language used, but you get the point.
Then, I had a heart check.
God loves these women way more than I do. He created them and delights in each one of them an insane amount. He even loves the John’s that make the decision to take advantage of his daughters. After hashing things out with God, my heart started to change the more I dwelled in His presence. We, as people with the Holy Spirit in us, bring hope, light, and healing. We have the ability to show the women and John’s how much they are loved. We get to share with them how their worth a crap ton more than getting taken advantage of every night. We have this new perspective that they can partake in. We have God on our side.
This month I’ve been working in a cafe and I’ve gotten the opportunity to get to know the brave souls that have changed their life around. There are very few places in life where I have felt more loved. These women love courageously and it blows me away. Hearing about their stories knocks me to my knees and leaves me in awe of our Father once again. These amazing daughters have hope and it’s so awesome to see.
My mindset has changed completely. Yeah, the situation sucks and it hurts my heart, but they’re trying to fill a void which ultimately won’t be filled by sex. Earning all of this money from these men isn’t going to make them happier. Having sex with a person offering it will not make any man more manly. At the end of the day these people are still missing out on this amazing thing that has given life to so many people. We have hope. We bring light. We know our God has already won.
God delights in you. God wants a personal relationship with you. God wants to heal your wounds. God wants to set you free. God loves you more than you can even begin to grasp. You are worth an unexplainable amount.
On another note..
I’m FULLY FUNDED!!!! THANK YOU! Video to come soon..
I’m organizing a Beauty For Ashes retreat for the 27th and I’ll need your help to fund it!-Keep an eye out for that in the next few days.
We leave Thailand on the 30th to head to Malaysia!
I love Thailand.
We got to see the Lantern Festival which was awesome!
This month has definitely left a lasting impact.
