There is absolutely nothing like the tangible presence of God. The feeling He gives is like no other. It’s a feeling of security, peace, fulfillment, wholeness, love, and the feeling that you’re drowning…except that it’s in an ocean of grace.
We must be careful, however; careful not to fall into the trap determining our standing with God as to whether we can feel Him or not. It’s easy to look around and see the heartache and poverty, the injustice, and political corruption, and say that there is no god here. However, God’s spirit is a life giving spirit and one that completes us, but if you’re like me it’s not always felt. There are many times and seasons of our lives that we go through and think that God has abandoned us. Left us to fend for ourselves and fight alone. I refuse to rely on that feeling. So often I crave God’s tangible presence as a security and affirmation of His love in my life, and that in turn causes me to forget His promise to never leave me or forsake me.
Since the beginning of the Race I’ve really wanted God to show up. I’ve wanted Him to show up big and blow me away. To be truthful, He hasn’t. I’m not hearing from Him like I want to. Where is He?
In all honesty I’ve been through these seasons before many times. I’ve actually come to get used to the desert places and trusting that God will bring me through them, however this time is different. I hear Him telling me that I can’t just sit and wait for this season to end. I actually have to get up and go through it. I was speaking to one of my squad leaders about this and they told me that maybe the reason you aren’t hearing from God is because He has nothing more to say. “Maybe He has already asked you to do something and you haven’t responded,” she said. That totally made sense. Since that moment I’ve began to step out of my comfort zone and sew into people more and God has shown up.
I’m one month and one week in to this trip and God is already doing a work. Breaking me and remolding me, and I’m excited for the end result and the journey there. Keep me in your prayers. I still need $4500 by the end of March. Please help me to continue this adventure. Click the support me tab on the left of this page and follow the prompts. Simple as that!
