I said: “Let me walk in the fields.”
He said: “No, walk in the town.”
I said: “There are no flowers there.”
He said: “No flowers, but a crown.”
I said: “but the skies are black;
There is nothing but noise and din.”
And He wept as He sent me back-
“There is more,” He said; “there is sin.”
I said: “But the air is thick,
And fogs are veiling the sun.”
He answered: “Yet souls are sick,
And souls in the dark undone!”
I said: “I shall miss the light,
And friends will miss me, they say.”
He answered: “Choose tonight
If I am to miss you or they.”
I pleaded for time to be given.
He said: “Is it hard to decide?”
It will not seem hard in heaven
To have followed the steps of your
Guide.”
I cast on look at the fields,
Then set my face to the town;
He said, “My child, do you yield?”
Will you leave the flowers for the crown?”
Then into His hand went mine;
And into my heart came He;
And I walk in a light divine,
The path I feared to see.
…and so the journey begins. I walked onto the plane this morning and realized there is no turning back now. All my months of preparation has come down to this moment. Will it all be in vain? Is God going to reveal Himself in these upcoming months when I need Him the most? Is He going to take care of all the things I’ve laid aside and walked away from in order to seek Him in this season of my life? I have so many questions and it’s common, I suppose. As much as He’s provided up to this point it would be foolish of me to think that He couldn’t complete what He began, but I’m not going to worry about the next 11 months. I’ll leave that up to Him. I’ve simply made up my mind that He knows better than me what’s good for me. I want to be content with whatever that may be. You see, in submission there is freedom: Freedom to live life abundantly. Freedom to love…and love hard. There is an infinite amount of grace to compensate for my failures…and so much more. I don’t fully understand it, but I’m willing to trust it and throw my life into it. I will commit to change the parts of my life He wishes to change.
Our First month on this race is Latacunga, Ecuador. Here we will be serving in Hagar Para Sus Ninos (For His Children), an orphanage in the heart of the city. Some of these children also have special needs. My heart and soul want nothing more than to hold these orphans who unless are told and come to the realization that there are no orphans of God and that He loves them, will have little chance of ever knowing Jesus. Am I being naïve to think that God “needs” me to complete His purpose? I believe I would be. I believe God desires to use me for such a purpose as being a testament to His unfailing love. Never needing me, but instead WANTING to use me to be His hands and feet. It’s an honor that He wants us all.
Prayers are still appreciated. As of right now I am only funded through the month of March. I’m in need of $9000 more to continue on to month 11. Please partner with me in supporting this effort in changing the world one heart at a time. Just click on the support me tab on the left of the page or make checks out to “Adventures in Missions” with my name in the memo line and mail them to:
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PO Box 534470
Atlanta, GA 30353
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