This week I died.
Six days ago I showed up in White, Georgia for World Race Training Camp. I rolled in pumped about all the awesome teammates I had already met and excited to meet the rest. I knew this week would stretch me, but I figured I would leave after seven days of being challenged and built up, ready to see everyone again in a month and start this thing for real.
It turns out God had a better idea. My expectations weren’t bad or even inaccurate. But they were far, far too small. In the last few months I’ve been praying prayers about seeing miracles, hearing His voice, letting the Holy Spirit flow through me, and seeing myself and others the way God does.
He answered my prayers by demolishing everything I thought I knew about myself and about Him. I realized I had been letting insecurity and comfort with how I understood God hold back what He was trying to do in my heart. It turns out that the God I serve is so big, that when I let Him show up in my life everything else I think is important gets utterly wrecked.
God showed me that for so long I had been reserving the right to say no to things that made me uncomfortable, even if that was exactly what He was asking of me. I was also limiting God by caring more about what people think of me than what God thinks.
So for the first time maybe ever, I truly died to self in every way and let go of all my ideas of who God wanted to be in my life. And let me tell you, it is SO worth it. In just a few short days I saw deaf ears open, celiac disease vanish, a cyst healed, and a swollen eye returned to normal in a few short hours. I heard God’s voice like never before, felt the heart of the Father like never before, and believed in the man God created me to be like never before.
There is no way to convey in this short post the enormity of who God is to me now. But let me just say: He is a BIG BIG GOD. I can't wait to travel with Him and my awesome new teammates for the next year!
My family for the next 11 months:
Team Reckless Faith:
Last but not least, this short video is just a taste of the many stories that came out of last week:
