When I was younger I absolutely LOVED it when missionaries came to my church. I remember sitting in my seat and thinking “wow this is insane, can God really do these things?”. I began to envision myself in foreign countries and my dad remembers me drawing pictures of laying hands on the sick and them being healed in Jesus name. Even though God planted this dream in me at a young age, I harbored many reservations and doubts about it becoming a reality.
In 2015 I was presented with the opportunity to go on my first missions trip. My church was taking a team of 20 to the beautiful Dominican Republic. Upon learning about this trip, I quickly became aware of my own insecurities and doubts about being able to be a missionary.
My family was interested in going and had asked me if I was interested as well. Of course I was interested… BUT on the way home from church that day I was attacked with lies that said that I didn’t have anything worth sharing with people and that I was simply incapable of reaching people for Jesus. I was terrified when I said yes to the missions trip and our team began to prepare. The months leading up to the trip were full of doubt as I struggled with the concept of having a testimony and believed that I didn’t have anything worth sharing. I remember breaking down several times before the trip and feeling petrified to go.
In this petrified state, I began to cry out to God and seek His answer to my burning question “what is my testimony”. And… wouldn’t you have guessed it, He answered me and started to show me who I was and how He has been right by my side every year of my life. Through this process, God showed me that I don’t just have “a” testimony, I have several testimonies and they each have the capacity to impact different people at different times.
Long story short, after going to the Dominican Republic I came home completely renewed. When people asked me how my trip was all I remember telling them was that it was amazing because I felt like I was doing what I was created to do.
I tell you this story because it was the beginning of a reality for me. The heart that God created in me for missions could be pursued. I realize that life is one big missions field but God has specifically given me a heart for the nations. After much prayer, God has lead me to the World Race… so here I come —Haiti—Dominican Republic—Jamaica—India—Nepal—Malaysia—Thailand—Cambodia—Ethiopia—Rwanda and — Uganda!!!
If you took anything from my story please take this… YOU have a testimony and it is worth sharing. God knows who needs to hear your story and will create those moments for you to share with others if you only ask.
“Yet you don’t have what you want because you don’t ask God for it.” ~James 4:2
“Ask, using my name, and you will receive, and you will have abundant joy.” ~John 16:24
Thank you for reading, YOU are AMAZING!!
Live loved,
Micaela
