Halfway. Wow, how did that happen?
I went into the fundraising process thinking it would be ridiculously overwhelming and draining, but here I am halfway funded. I doubted the Lord’s goodness and faithfulness more than I ever have in my life, and I had no reason to. I knew in my head that God would see me through this process as long as I was faithful and obedient to Him along the way, but I didn’t let that knowledge transfer into my heart and my actions. I knew all the Sunday school answers, but I was not applying them to my life. I was blown away by the Lord’s blessings. When I was becoming discouraged, I would pray for specific amounts each week, and every single time, God came through. I kept asking myself the question, “Why did I doubt?” He has never been anything other than faithful to me, and I was being ungrateful and blind to that.
Once I placed all of my worries and doubts and fears into the hands of the God of the universe, I immediately felt nothing but joy in who He is. He pushed me to the point where I had no option except to rely on Him, because this trip and this amount of money are so much larger than me. I need the Lord to have complete control over every aspect of this journey, for only through Him will it happen. I no longer have any fears or worries about reaching my fundraising goal after God reminded me of His majesty. I firmly believe that He called me to this trip for a specific reason and that He will see it through. My job is to trust in His timing and His will even when I can’t see the end result. That was He receives all of the glory.
One of the largest blessings so far in this journey has been my teammates. I absolutely CANNOT wait to meet and go on this crazy adventure with them. Knowing that I will be traveling the world with people so on fire for God and His kingdom is beyond amazing. It is crazy to me how much I already love them all and I hardly even know who they are. But I do know this: I know that they desire to serve the Lord and live out His commands. I know that they are eager to see how the Spirit moves. And the most comforting of all is that I know they are walking through the same exact process as I am. Being able to talk about our struggles and keep each other on track through all of this is incredible. They have brought so much peace to me and reassured me so many times.
I want to thank those of you who have partnered with me so far on this journey. I would not be at this point without the generosity of every single one of you. You all play a part in the blessing that this has been. Thank you for trusting in the unknown and for allowing God to use your money to send me to do His work. Thank you for your prayers, words of encouragement, and advice. Having such a large support system of believers who love me and have faith in me and in this journey gives me a huge sense of comfort as I move forward.
I would like to ask those of you who have not yet had a chance to support me financially to pray about the possibility of joining with me. If you feel called to do so, there is a link on the home page of my blog site. Whether you are able to financially support me or not, I ask that you please keep me and all of my teammates in your prayers that God prepares our hearts for what He has planned.
