AHHH Money
You are a thorn in my side and a constant thought in the back of my mind. There are so many reason why doing missions is so humbling, money is one of those things. It is soo humbling to ask people for their hard earned money knowing there will be no possible way for you to ever pay them back except with a lamb little thank you card. I have never been very good at asking for help, I always feel like I am bothering someone by asking and this aspect of myself always becomes more apparent when I have to raise finical support for a missions trip. Ironically today the guest pastor at my church spoke on, of all things, finances. God talked to me and He asked “If you trust me with your life, why wouldn’t you trust me with something so small as your money.” Geez!! What is wrong with me, God who spoke the WHOLE universe into place, who owns every single dime that is on this earth has told me (numerous times) to trust Him and I’m just sitting here throwing a pitty party for myself thinking;
“No one’s going to give me any money”
I'm not going to make my deadlines and won’t get to go”
“No one even cares that I’m going”
Well thank God, God is God and I'm not cause I would have smite myself a long time ago for thinking so little of His capabilities.
God has called me to do this, for whatever crazy reason, and He wants every part of my life including my worry of money. I have to remind myself that He’s got me in His hands, like He has all my life.
