As I sit here on Halloween still debating about going out into town, I realize how much I have changed.
I still more than ever want community: lots of friends, good times, social life, and happy hours. Yet a stillness has come over my life where I want meaning not just good times. I have made many memories; now I want a community and plans for the future not just tonight.
One where I don’t have to wonder if I’ll be invited.
Where I don’t have to ask and ask to make plans with someone.
A community where I am valued just as I value others and we choose one another.
October 2009 team!
I want that thing I’ve been hearing about, first from Michael Hindes, then Ted Hanson, then Andrew Shearman and the other R.I.M. men: covenant relationships.
(if you wanna know who these men are, visit the RIM website here)
I think living the dream comes from sharing the dream God has given each of us. Seth Barnes could not be living his dream of seeing my generation rising up if he had not shared it to help bring it about. Microsoft man Bill Gates could not be where he is today if he had not shared his dream of having a computer in every home. And Mother Theresa had a vision no one would die alone and unloved. For each the dream had to be shared before it could grow. There was only a dream before there was The World Race; just as there was only a vision before there was Microsoft.
So where am I? What could I be sharing right now? And who might I be sharing it with?
At a recent conference at my church Andrew Shearman implored us to “LIVE your life.”
It sounds so simple.
Yet I will spend more time worrying about the right thing sometimes than ever actually doing anything. And just imagine God in those times. Does He get antsy? Is He sitting on the edge of His God-sized seat with anticipation waiting for me to make up my mind to LIVE.
To decide. To move. To choose. To speak. To sing.
Man, how I want to live my life.
And the overwhelming thing is: it’s my choice.
What am I choosing? Who will I be in covenant with to help me with my dreams as I help with theirs?
(Bill Gates & Paul Allen) (Seth & his daughter)
