While thinking about this blog I was very nervous, because well… shame. When I took a break from it I started scrolling through Instagram, this is where I came across the verse Ephesians 6:11 “put on the full armor of God so that you can stand against the devils schemes “ I see this as the Lord telling me that the nervousness I was feeling was an attack from the enemy trying to keep me holding onto all of the shame that I feel.
This blog idea came to me during one of our debrief sessions on, you guessed it… shame. I realized how much shame I held some of it even causing more shame just because I was ashamed. I realized that part of this is where my inability to consistently be who I am around people and be happy with it comes from. Instead I would change who I was to match who I though that person wanted me to be. Recently I’ve learned that I can’t even accurately answer personality questions about myself because I’ve spent so much time trying to cover who I am. I’ve been living out of what shame tells me I am and not who God says I am. Shame can be such a powerful thing for the enemy to use against us if we allow him to, so I’m learning to let shame go.
