So I like kids. I've always liked kids. But the thought of having my own scare the crap out of me. That's a whole lot of pressure and responsibility and I'm just not sure if I'm up to it. Also there's that whole they're there all the time for the rest of my life thing (a husband applies to these same thoughts). It's something I've gone back and forth on a bunch but yesterday I totally had a moment where I thought, I could do this.
Lindsay going down the slide! It's huge!
We brought the kids to this park that had this MASSIVE slide! It took 64 stairs to get to the top! Well we were going up and down and having the best time ever! And then all of a sudden this little girl Damaris (who I love a whole bunch) came down and just face planted. Instant bruise. Crying like the world was ending and my heart just hurt so much for her. The Tia (all the people who work here are called aunt or uncle–it's cute) held her, calmed her down and then put her on the much safer swings. Where she just sat looking so forlorn and miserable. She's six and doesn't know how to swing–how to make herself go. Well that was just the cherry on the sadness cake so I walked over and pushed her on the swing. And pushed her. And pushed her. For about an hour. And the sun was shining and I realized I would have pushed her all day if it made her happy or lessened her pain. Her comfort and happiness were way more important than the fact that my arms were tired, I was tired of standing and I kind of needed a bathroom! And I thought, hey I could do this! I could be a mom. Maybe. It's still a scary thought but if this cute little girl that I've known for 2 weeks can keep me from caring about my own needs, how much greater would it be with my own children?
Tell me she's not the cutest thing ever and you wouldn't push her for hours on a swing!!??
Now I just need an experience to convince me that a husband would be worth it 🙂
On a completely different note, yesterday I went to my first professional soccer game! We met up with some squad mates to see two Bolivian teams play. The home team one. There was lots of heckling and it was awesome. Oh and there was a Burger King right down the road so that's what we had for dinner.
At the soccer game! Team Collision ladies minus Lauren because she's sick 🙁 and the squadmates we met up with minus the awesome Kim because she took the picture 🙂
Below is me in Burger King. First, the coffee and ice cream cost me less than $2–awesome. Secondly the cone was twice the size of the coffee. Not awesome–it was super cold!
