I was tired it had been a long day. Though we are still not out in the feild the training has been intense. My muscles ached. I ignored it like I would usually do.
Mike was talking about letting go. He said that people get so used to carrying the pain that they are feeling and the burdens that we have, that it becomes a part of us, it was time to free it up. That woke me up a little, it stirred in me. He asked if there was someone in the room suffering from pain in the lower back and has injuries in their spine, as well as neck problems. My hand flew into the air, and then suddenly I heard it all to clearly, ¨Do you want to be free?¨ Yes my soul cried out yes. I was so tired of chronic pain, wondering can I really get through these 11 months. I was called to this, I needed to be released from the pain so that I could be fully of use to God for whatever he needed me for.
Mike was talking about letting go. He said that people get so used to carrying the pain that they are feeling and the burdens that we have, that it becomes a part of us, it was time to free it up. That woke me up a little, it stirred in me. He asked if there was someone in the room suffering from pain in the lower back and has injuries in their spine, as well as neck problems. My hand flew into the air, and then suddenly I heard it all to clearly, ¨Do you want to be free?¨ Yes my soul cried out yes. I was so tired of chronic pain, wondering can I really get through these 11 months. I was called to this, I needed to be released from the pain so that I could be fully of use to God for whatever he needed me for.
I was told a story about an Pastor in India, who was witnessing in a community. They beat him to near death, breaking his legs in over 20 places, his spine, he was a wreck. The doctor gave him the bad news that he would never walk again. He responded, ¨This will not do, I have to great a call on my life, I need to walk.¨ With that he got up and left. The doctor gave his life to Jesus, I hear. So with the same passion and conviction, I cried out, ¨Mercy father, mercy. I have this call, I need to walk.¨
God showed up.
I AM HEALED. MY SPINE IS STRAIGHT. I WALK TALLER. I AM FREE. I WOKE UP FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE PAIN FREE. FOREVER WILL THANKFULLNESS WILL FOREVER BE ON MY LIPS.
This is the God we serve. He loves us and desires to see us set free of all iniquity, sin and rebellion. He wants to see us made whole in him lacking nothing. Yet in order for me to do this I had to surrender all. I had to say that I wanted it, I had to believe that he wanted to give it. Freedom reigns in this racer. Praise God!!!
