I keep reading blogs from current and future Racers, and it seems like everyone has it all together. Everyone has this amazing calling. They heard God's voice so loud and clear. There's no doubt that this is where they need to be. Then there's me. Doubting Thomas.
The more I think about this 11 month journey, the more questions pop into my head.
Is this really my calling?
Is this where God wants me?
Am I even hearing His voice?
Is it His will or my own?
With these questions come negative thoughts.
This isn't what I'm called to, this is just a desire of my own. I'm not what the World Race is looking for. I'm not what these countries need. Nothing big is going to happen. God doesn't need me. I can't do this.
Wait… WHAT?!
Someone doesn't want me to go.
The Bible says that the devil is a liar and the father of all lies. (John 8:44)
That he prowls around like a lion, seeking someone to devour. (1 Peter 5:8)
He comes to steal, kill and destroy. (John 10:10)
But if I resist him, he will flee from me. (James 4:7)
And I realize..
The desires of my own heart are good.
They must have come from God.
I must be hearing Him.
This must be His will.
He must have something big planned.
I must be exactly who He is looking for.
He must need me.
I will do this.
I am called.
The devil can lie all he wants.
As for me? I will serve the LORD.
