Every time I think I have God figured
out, He teaches me that I don’t and I never will. How can my finite
mind ever grasp someone so infinite. But I guess that’s the point
right? He didn’t create us to understand Him, but to spend eternity
learning about the depths of His heart.
This year hasn’t been easy, in fact, it
has been one hard season after another. These type of seasons are
never fun, but I always walk away stronger and learning so much. So
what have I learned recently? Well, to be honest, I learned that
religion is so much safer than walking in true freedom. Which is
probably why so many people choose to stay there. I am not used to
freedom, I am used to people feeding me rules, do’s and don’ts, and
following those rules. It’s the easy thing to do. All of a sudden,
God opens my eyes and says “Baby girl you are free, walk in your
freedom.” And I freak out! I realized that its much easier for me
to be told what to do and to do it.
My dreams have been dead for so long,
because it has been about what the Father told me to do, whether I
liked it or not. Obedience was the key. But now the Lord, has taken
me to a whole new level. I am no longer a slave to a master, but a
daughter to a loving Father. A Father whose heart comes alive when my
heart comes alive. I have all of this space to roam and twirl and
dance….and it scared me so much, and sometimes still does. What if
I make a mistake, what if I choose the wrong path, what if I go in
the wrong direction. And then I feel that tug on my heart again and
those gentle whispers. Don’t you know who you are? Don’t you know who
your Father is? I am His child, His princess, and I sit enthroned in
a palace next to Him in Heaven. He is the One who has never
failed me or let me down, my Provider, the One who loves me more than
I could ever imagine, the One who gave His Son for me, the One who
shed His very body and blood for me. Don’t I think that if He gave
all of Himself to set me free from eternal condemnation, that He
would take care of me down to the tiniest detail? How blessed we are,
children of God, to have a Dad like this. Why do we fear His
goodness? Why do we fear, when we He proves Himself faithful time and
time again? I don’t want to fear anymore Jesus, I just want to love
you, trust you, and walk fully in my freedom.
This time passion is the key. As much
as I love Thailand, my passion is not to go there at this time. Funny
enough, I went to NYC and couldn’t wait to get out. Apparently, NYC
is not my passion either. My dreams are slowly coming back to life,
and my heart ticks when….
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lives are changed
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the hungry are fed
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the fatherless feel loved
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people come to know the love of
Christ
Through the Lord and through you, my
supporters, I was able to experience these things first-hand and be a
part of that change. When I joined the World Race, we were a tiny
squad of 45. Now, 3 squads of 50, are going out at the same time. The
World Race is growing so much, and I want to give everything I have
to support this movement, so I will be joining the AIM staff, as an
apprentice. You can also make sure that the hungry are fed and the
fatherless loved, by helping to raise up more and more radical
ambassadors for Christ.
I need your financial support. This is
now my full time job, and I will be raising my own salary. I need to
raise 10k for my apprenticeship. (If you received a support letter
from me, there was an error: I need to raise all of my support
and will not be receiving the additional 10k from AIM. That
additional amount is only for full time staff, not apprentices.) This
will cover all of my living expenses for the next 6 months. I am in
immediate need of $2,300 by Monday, October 3 in order to begin my
apprenticeship.
Please pray about giving and joining
this ministry. Together we can see nations changed by the loved of
Christ.
