This Actress Has Retired

One of the main lessons I learned on the World Race, was finding out my true identity. Now… I definitely don’t have it all figured out yet, I don’t think I ever will until Jesus comes, but I no longer believe the lies the enemy has fed me for so long. What fascinates me the most, is that I could easily point out other peoples issues with identity, but never knew I had one as well. I always thought, “For the most part, I have it together and I like who I am.” What a crock of sh&^! I spent so much time trying to be what everyone else liked that I had absolutely no idea who I really was. This reminds me of Julia Roberts in Runaway Bride, she always ordered the same kind of eggs as her significant others. She had to prepare eggs in every possible way, just to find out what SHE actually liked. It sounds so ridiculous, but I couldn’t relate more to this unhealthy chameleon-type behavior.

 

Now, I am really starting to learn about who I am, who God intended me to be when He thought of me before Creation began (we were always a part of His plan you know, we were all born with purpose). I asked myself, “I wonder if I were to take a personality test, one that I had taken before the race, if the results would be different?” So yesterday, I tested it out. My sister has this book called “Do What You Are” and the personality tests are supposed to help you figure out what careers are best for you. I first took the test when I was 23 years old and my results were ESFP. I remember taking the test and I couldn’t be prouder of the results. Now at 30 years old,, I took the test again, and the results were just as I suspected…..completely DIFFERENT. Now I’m an ENFJ. Why such a drastic change? It’s simple, before I was living a lie and now I am living in the truth.
 

The ESFP personality is dubbed as “The Performer”, what a perfect title for the lie I was living. I was totally acting for years, and pretending to be something I am not. The enemy is so terrified of you finding out your TRUE identity. He knows that if you do…and you truly walk in it….he’s toast. Don’t allow him to lie to you any longer. Pray and ask God to reveal to you, who you are in Him, how He created you to be, and be blown away by the strongest, sweetest, richness of love you have ever experienced.