Wow.
I leave for the World Race in about two months, and I go to training camp in about two weeks! I cannot fathom how crazy that is and how real it is getting.
I am looking forward to going on the World Race for many reasons, but if we are going to be honest here, one reason is to get out. To get out of my old routine and the high school life that left me feeling and more stressed over stupid things like high school drama. My life has been a whirlwind, to say the least, these past few weeks. I have had proms, our senior picnic and graduation, and several graduation parties all within these past three weeks. I thought graduation day was going to be very emotional, but I was full of excitement to be done with high school. I have spent the past two weekends going to all my friend’s graduation parties, which has been very exciting! I loved having all of my family and friends all squeezed into my backyard to celebrate.
I am the type of person who honestly has not been sad thinking about leaving high school so soon, but these past few weeks have really caught up to me. Blessed is truly an understatement when I think about the people around me, and it has finally hit me that in a short two months, I wont see them for nine. I dread the upcoming days where I have to say goodbye to all of my friends as they leave to start college in the fall.
These past few days I have soaked in my time I have with everyone. It is hard to fathom that after 13 years of the same routine, my friends and I will not be going back to school together in September. Honestly I have been writing this blog in tears because “see ya laters” are hard for me, and I am not ready to do them. I am having a hard time thinking about not getting to call Grace whenever and see what she is doing and making plans to hangout. I don’t understand how I am not going to be working with Mylei, Hailey, and Sophia. How I won’t spend five hours of my day in every class with Sophia. I can’t sit back while cracking jokes with Mylei or go to Hailey’s to watch movies. I won’t be able to text Jenna saying I want to hangout and she immediately says yes and lets me in. I won’t have my usual my car talks with Amanda. No more girl pool days, movie nights, or dinners. I won’t be able to drive down the neighborhood and see Connor driving past me, or all the boys at Jeremy’s house and stopping by to say hi. I wont be able to get my hugs from George or getting to have a good laugh with Owen. I won’t be able to make jokes with Chris. How I won’t get to watch Olivia, Ashlynn, and Christina live up their senior year. I will not be able to call up Hayden and sit on her couch while eating cookie dough or ice cream. To not hangout with Kelly and snuggle up with her puppies and just talk. To not joke around with Korey or Landon whenever I see them. To not see all of them and Fitz every week. It feels weird to think about not being with all my people for nine months.
I cannot wait to come home and see how all of us have grown and spent their first year of college, high school, or life and all the memories they had. It has been a sentimental weekend, but I have the rest of the summer to live it up with some of my favorite people in the whole world. I can’t wait to meet my World Race friends but I just wish I could bring my hometown friends in my suitcase with me. I love you all more than you know and this goes out to y’all.
