When I am honest I tell you that…
I some times believe that the next four months will be more challenging than any month next year.
That balancing life, school and world race preparations comes with a million different emotions that hit me all at once.
I'm feeling anxious about having to miss a week of school for training camp..
I am nervous.
I am scared.
I am exhausted.
I have no idea how I am going to raise $3,500 by Oct.1st.
I have been trying to rely on my own strength.
I am overwhelmed.
I am like Peter sinking in the ocean.
I don't feel prepared.
I am prideful.
God is going to wreck my life and my heart and it is going to hurt.
I doubt.
Prayer is sometimes hard.
I am being challenged.
I wonder what I have gotten myself into.
I cry.
I am selfish.
I enjoy my comfort zones.
Next year is not going to be easy.
I don't want to miss out on life back home.
But I also tell you that…
I am excited.
I trust in my God.
The Lord is my provider.
The Lord is my comforter.
The Lord has everything under control.
God is good!
God has a plan.
I can feel my heart breaking.
I have been blessed with parents who support missions.
I have been blessed by a church that supports missions.
I have been blessed with a community that supports missions.
I am running to the Lord.
I cannot wait to see what the Lord will teach me throughout 2013.
The Lord has already started teaching me things here.
I am constantly encouraged by my squad, family and friends.
I can't wait to meet my squad.
I am being challenged.
I can't stop thinking about the Race.
I can't wait to share the gospel to those I will meet.
There are people who need to know of God's love.
I get to invest in people's lives.
I have been called.
I feel a peace.
I am overwhelemed with joy.
Next year is going to be worth it.
God is going to completely change me.
"The Lord will fight for you, and you have only to be silent."
–Exodus 14:14
"Be still & know that I am God. I will be exalted among nations, I will be exalted in all the earth."
–Psalm 46:10
