So, I have been avoiding my blog like it was the plague….
Also, I have been using the too busy excuse a lot – all my free time is going to reading and gathering information. When I do actually sit down to blog, I almost always get distracted reading other World Racer’s blogs for “inspiration” that I run out of time to do my own. (Oh darn.) Also, I have so many great books to read to prepare for this trip, that I convince myself (which isn’t hard) that I don’t have time to stop reading and write. Whenever I have a quiet afternoon at the coffee shop, I spend all my time reading and not processing the words. I think there are many reasons for this obsession with reading to put off writitng, but fear is the root. Plain fear. Fear that I might actually learn; fear that I would be challenged to change; and fear that my life would be turned upside down. Don’t get me wrong – I want all of those things and hope to change on the World Race. I just don’t want them yet. I’m not ready to be uncomfortable in my success-driven world. Reading about this change is fine as long as I don’t stop and process what I am reading and how it might apply to me.
Yet, I’m in a battle, because like I sad I above, I do desperately want those things. I want to really live like Christ lived among the poor, take literally his words about abandoning everything, and truly Love with more than what is in me. How do I balance that with my current DC life? So…my blogging fingers are in limbo – between where I am and where I’m going – and trapped by fear of what this could mean.
But alas, deep down I know how important it is to take you all along on this journey (not to mention that it is required by Adventures in MIssions!). So, here goes. I’m going to try to start blogging regularly. Please be patient with me as I learn and struggle and maybe, by the Grace of God, I will be able to portray what life is like once I start my journey this August.
I hope you enjoy. 🙂
