I am writing this on my second to last flight with nsquad.
I am sitting in a row with 3 other women I treasure.
I look back and see those around me who fill my heart up.
I can't believe this is the end.
And because of the end I need to say thank you.
For everything.
Financial support, prayerful support, emails, iMessages, blog comments.
For all of you who have walked this journey with me from afar.
I don't think you truly realize what you were apart of.
You were apart of a year that redefined my life.
You were apart of making me the woman I am today.
The woman that will step off the plane in LA.
You invested in me becoming stronger.
Becoming broken.
Become whole.
If I took a paragraph to express what each bit of support was I would go in for pages and pages.
So instead I want I tell you who I am. Because of the support you gave me, each prayer, each dollar, each encouraging comment helped bring me to who I am.
This blog won't put a dent in my year, in who I've become. But it will give you a glimpse of who is stepping of the plane in LA. And a glimpse of the journey of which you've been apart- whether you are in the states, or in the Nsquad family. Be on the look out in the next few weeks for a video and more words of my grand adventure with my Jesus.
I am a woman.
Strong
Bold
Filled with knowledge of her own beauty.
Someone who has seen the diversity
Of this world
And longs to walk in it even more.
Someone who has walked
In the red light districts of Thailand
Through dangerous streets in Peru
Bought tomatoes from women in Mozambique
Who had the joy of The Lord in the midst of their
Dark country.
I am woman who was able to witness babushkas
See clear for the first time in the Ukraine.
I am someone who worshipped along brothers and sisters
In different tongues
From different nations
And is better because of it.
I am someone who longs to sit
With someone through their own journey
But who know nows not to stand in their gaps
A woman who has learned the value of
Rest
Of tough words
And of community
I am woman who has a clear
View of her future
As it's one
That involves
Nothing normal
And everything Christ.
There is more to me now
Than there ever was then
I've learned to let go of the darkness
And wield the words that
God has given me as a sword.
There is much much more
That I don't even know
Thank you for walking with me in the unknown
The uncomfortable
And the unthinkable
Thank you for helping hold my heart up
For bringing me joy in the midst of sadness
And for blessing me so incredibly well.
I pray for all of the blessing I've received to more out even on more of abundance to you.
Thank you
