It's funny. When I booked my flight to training camp I was blessed to be able to use air miles. I was blown out of the water by the fact that it would be ten bucks.
But in reality my flight path was kind of ridiculous.
Long Beach-> Seattle-[then a helatious red-eye]>ATLANTA!
Right now I am in my Seattle portion of the trip.
And it is KILLING me that I am not in Atlanta already.
But what I told myself back when I booked this crazy flight was that while I was sitting in the airport in Seattle I was going to sit down and have a beer.
And I was going to wait.
And I HATE waiting.
Leading up to applying for this trip I wasn't waiting. I was moving. Constanty. crazily. moving moving moving. I wasn't even giving God a chance to speak to be because I did not stop. Working 6 days a week, volunteering, being involved in the South Africa ministry at my church, blogging.
And then a bunch of different things happened. God told me to jump, I got hit by a car, I quit my job.
I decided I was going on the World Race.
I think even in all of this, in all of this trusting God, in all of this leaning into these tortorously sad, emotionally seasons of my life I still just haven't waited.
And so, right now as I sit drinking a beer I still don't want to wait. I don't want to give God the time to do work.
I'm a bit terrified.
So right now, again I am sitting and reflecting on the last 24 hours of my life. Last night there was a powerfully moving of the Spirit at the church service I was at. It was all around me.
But all I heard was "wait".
I was pleading to God for more, asking me to show me something, anything, to give me a bit more of my picture my story.
And he said "Wait"
On the plane from Long Beach to here I was reading "Kingdom Journeys" by Seth Barnes and my spirit was getting continually lifted up with the fact that I am making the right choice. I am walking the right path.
I sat in my seat and prayed for Him to show me more.
And guess what He said?
Wait.
So in this moment of being a bit petrified about Training Camp, about being a little nervous to meet my #Nsquad family. I'm going to choose to listen to what His spirit has been saying. I'm going to take a deep breath in this journey. I'm going to pray I can sleep on my red-eye.
And I am going to sit back, wait and drink my beer.
