If I die today what will my regrets be?
Ummm….God what kind of question is this? Not exactly the question I expected at 6:30 a.m. from my devotional. Number 1, I don't want to die today, not in Thailand and number 2, this is a really morbid way to wake me up!
As I began to ponder and pray over the question several things came to mind, some I assume are typical answers. I would regret…
- Not telling my family and friends, "I love you" enough.
- Not taking the time to make the skype call home because I don't want the frustration of sketchy phone calls.
- Having built walls up and keeping people at a distance.
- Not being BOLD and witnessing to my family and friends!
- Not mending broken relationships.
- Spending more intentional time with people.
- Spending so much time texting and not enough time in the floor playing with kids.
- Not laughing enough.
- Taking life too seriously.
- Holding grudges.
- Not forgiving sooner.
- Not apologizing sooner.
- Not listening to my elders and the stories and the wisdom they have to give
- Not looking the prostitue in the eyes, and giving her hope!
- Walking on egg shells, afraid to confront someone and call out greatness in their life.
- The times I have not reached out when God has asked me to love.
- The times I have been afraid.
- Not taking the hand of the homeless man, and telling him he is loved and not forgotten.
- All the times I have ignored the still small voice inside of me.
- Not being more active in God's command to GO to all the nations and preach the gospel.
- Not spending more time daily with God, I mean come on….I'm gonna be spending enternity with Him, shouldn't I get to know Him before I get there!?!?
Even now after making this list in my journal and again here there are so many things I could add. I have always been told to live a life of no regrets. Is that possible? The only man I know of who lived with no regrets is Jesus. How I long to be exactly like Him.
God, You never cease to amaze me!! Lord, I apologize to You for all the times I should have and could have but didn't. Lord, help me to remember that living in the center of Your will there are no regrets.
