This song has become my mantra, my daily prayer, my lifeline in times of trouble. The lyrics speak the words my soul has been crying out for, but that I could not articulate. I find hope, joy, peace and love in this song. I feel the Holy Spirit inside of me awaken. I also find myself humbled by these words. Reminded that in this life I will have trouble, but that I have a source of confidence that is never shaken.
Where is it that you find your confidence?
If you’re anything like me, I often find myself forgetting the truth that this song speaks, trying to find my confidence elsewhere — in people, in my circumstances, in the world, in myself. And each time that I do this, I find myself disappointed, weak, confused, heartbroken. Because the truth of the matter is this:
People will always fail you. It’s human nature. No one can be all that you need them to be all the time. No one can fill the gaping hole in your heart that longs for something more. And that includes yourself.
The world is full of empty promises that will always leave you disappointed. The world tells you that you’re not enough, that you must see things in order to believe them, that you must strive harder to “get there”.
Circumstances always change. If you depend on your life being perfect, finally getting “there”, you will be in constant pursuit of something that is unattainable. And all that will be left is a life full of emptiness.
Jesus never fails. He never leaves us nor forsakes us. He is always for us and never against us. His love is never ending. His grace is ever-flowing. His mercy and forgiveness are extended always. He calls us out upon the waters not to watch us drown, but to help us see that there is more to this life than we could ever imagine. That we can walk on water with eyes fixed upon Him. That He will catch us when we start to fall.
Then why is it that I continue to look everywhere else but to Jesus for my confidence? How can I know this truth yet so easily fall prey to complacency and fear? The waves of life begin to swell around me and I thrash about trying to save myself, only to find that I’m drowning faster.
As I prepare for the journey that God has in store for me on The World Race, I must admit that I feel myself drowning more often than I would like. Worries and fears easily creep in, nerves start to shake me and I find myself feeling anything but confident.
So, I’m making a decision. Starting today, I will strive for one thing and one thing only: to keep my eyes fixed on Jesus. I will fight to focus on His Face and not on the waves surrounding me. I will choose every moment of every day to see His Truth rather than the lies that are constantly fighting for my attention. I will work to receive more, rest more, believe more and trust more. And I will remind myself that I am His and He is mine.
This adventure is not the end all be all. Rather it is the starting point for the journey to become the woman that I was created to be.
