One month out.
So many emotions.
You guys i’ll admit I’m very excited and terrified all at the same time.
Now what I think I’ve been wrestling with, is realizing this is the biggest commitment I’ve made in my life thus far. You see I have made lots of commitments throughout my life, but none of this magnitude. Furthermore, the reality of leaving has become very real. I always knew I was leaving, but with our launch date fast approaching, the anticipation is building.
I am also fearful because I have been struggling with being fully prepared for the race. There are still things I must buy and finalize before October 10. I am not fully supported and I am still in the process of obtaining my shots, buying gear and having spending money for the year. Struggling with these fears has made me anxious and aware of my own doubt.
What I try to remember is how God has been so faithful to me over the course of my support raising process and how he has not abandoned me despite my insecurities and doubt. I also try to remember that everyone’s story looks different and even though I do not have the luxury of having excess money to obtain gear and money for travel, God WILL come through. The fact that I do not have my own money to rely on means I must fully rely on God for this trip.
As I survey my time left here in America, I want a month of persistence, new adventures, stillness and peace.
And despite my fear, I will daily surrender my will to the Lord. I am not the best at this, but the Lord has me in this unknown for a reason and I must grasp onto this truth. I will make the most of the days left and remember the Maker has not left my side.
I want to thank my current supporters for joining me on this journey. Please remember how important you are in this process and how important you will continue to be to me this year. In the hard times to come, I will remember that you guys believed in this mission, and me even when I didn’t believe in myself. I cannot tell you how special that is to me.
I also want to urge everyone reading this, to please please consider supporting me on this mission trip. The World Race is what you make of it, and I promise I will spend these next 11 months serving the Lord to the best of my ability.
Peace be the journey, Meg
