Last night was the true start of my new life. I declared my life to Jesus. Let’s talk about what brought this on.
I was sitting in my hammock just having conflict with myself on why I am here in this place to share the word of God if I didn’t understand it myself. I kept asking myself how is it so easy for people to talk to God and have a relationship with him, when I didn’t know where or how to begin. Thinking so many things, I decided to go to sleep. As I was getting ready for bed, there was a HUGE spider in the bathroom. This caused me to tell the girls who were in their room with the light on. A girl on my team, Megan noticed I looked off and invited me onto her bed and talk. We began to talk about the relationships in my life and if any of them were truly making me stronger to where I wanted to be in life. Now here’s the real question:
Meg: Have you declared your life to the Lord yet?
Me: No, I haven’t
Meg: would you like to?
From that moment, we went outside to the basketball court and just talked about what it meant, She led me in prayer as I declared my sins to the Lord and fully devoted my life to my savior. Having so many of my prayers of conflict being answered in one night, I went into my room and just wrote what was in my heart. After a restful night I woke up and after breakfast Megan had an eager look in her eye to talk.
Would you like to be baptized today? Symbolizing not only my soul being saved but that conformation that I AM declaring the Lord as my savior and I will be starting a new life in him.
There won’t be anymore comparing myself to others and building who I am through them. From this day on, I will finally learn who I am meant to be, and the only me I need to be is the one Christ’s relationship builds me to be.
The enemy is sure to try and tear me down, get in my head and pull me away from God. I pray today and everyday that I remember who my God is and by a simple prayer to him I can feel the Holy Spirit fills my body and rejoice in his praise once again.
Since I didn’t have connection to post this when I wanted to, I would like to give a little update.
Everybody on my team notices a change in my outlook. I’m not exactly sure what that means but I feel the Holy Spirit filling my body and the Lord pulling me closer to him. It’s become easier to pray and to go through daily life thanking God for all the tough times and easy times. I feel connections growing as the week goes on. Tomorrow we leave for our next location, leaving half my squad. It’s scary for sure but that just means more intimate time with God, myself and my team.
Also another little side note:
My first friend on this race, Destany Ennis, is still underfunded by $800 I’m going to add a link to her funding page and if you would like to help donate it would be greatly appreciated!!! No matter what I know the Lord will provide, it would still mean a lot for her to stay on this race along with our team!
