The title of this blog is very similar to something that Team Ivy was told upon starting our last month of ministry in South Africa.
It wasn’t meant to hurt us or offend us. It was more of a reminder that in this case, LIV Village WOULD function without us. We weren’t the saviors or superheroes coming in to save the day. LIV functioned very well before we got there, and would continue to be successful after we left.
It was a hard pill to swallow. Here I am giving up almost an entire year of my life to help others, and essentially being told that my help wasn’t needed was hard.
HOWEVER, I’m glad we were told that. It was a hard truth and a reality that I at least needed to hear (I cannot speak for my whole team so I’ll speak for myself in this matter.) It brought me down off of that pedal-stool that is easy to stand on top of while serving on the Race. It’s easy to think that these people, these organizations and churches truly need you.
…BUT THEY DON’T!
They appreciate your sacrifice and what you do for them while serving them, but they don’t physically need you. They need Jesus. Once you leave, life goes on, just as it had before you got there!
Life goes on… that’s been a harsh reality I’ve been up against since being home. I’m coming back into the same house, town, family, church that I left, but I’m not the same. I’m still a piece of the puzzle, but don’t quite fit in the spot that I left. I’ve been trying to maneuver through life back home and figuring out where I fit in now! My roles in activities, church, passions, and even jobs have changed.
Here’s the kicker… just like we were told at LIV Village, life went on back here at home, and wherever God leads me, whatever He has in store for me next, I know that everything will be okay.
I’m appreciated,
BUT
God is needed.
