People-pleasing/fear of disappointing people
Approval Addiction
Fear of Man
For as long as I can remember, I have dealt with these things; however, it was not brought to my attention how bad it was until I came on the Race. I did not realize how much they affected me as a person and molded me into someone that I was not created to be.
People-pleasing/fear of disappointing people, approval addiction, and fear of man have done NOTHING but:
paralyze, cripple, and drag me into spirals of misery and negativity. It is hard to constantly feel like you need to put on a good face or perform. It is draining and actually impossible to please every single person you come into contact.
SO WHY DO I DO IT? WHY HAVE I DONE IT FOR YEARS?
I am tired of it. It has been exhausting me for my entire life. I am ready to start moving forward.
This my friends, is what I have been going to the Lord with over the past few weeks.
THIS WAS THE BEGINNING OF THE STORM.
No I did not get hurt, nothing physically happened to me; nothing like that. The storm is just another huge area of personal growth that God is walking me through by trying to find the root(s) of these things that prevent me from being the daughter of the King, the bride, that I was created to be.
The storm is hard; however, it is still beautiful. God is pointing out things for me to work on, things that the world has turned me into, so that I can come back to the child of God that I was created to be. I am not upset, mad, sad, angry, etc that I am in the middle of a storm, but instead I am hopeful, I am excited because after the storm is over, I am going to look even more like Jesus! What more could I possibly want?
“… but joy comes with the morning.” Psalm 30:5
Joy is here, every day, no matter how hard it seems, no matter what difficult things are brought up, there is joy.
There is hope.
There is peace.
There is love.
There is grace.
Thank You Jesus for Your grace.
Stay tuned for updates on how this storm is going as I continue to work through it with the Lord. Thanks y’all for the love, support, and prayers. They are always greatly appreciated. God Bless.
