I‘m gunna get real with y’all tonight.
Tonight as I got ready for bed, sat down with my Bible, and opened up my blog to check out my progress on fundraising before reading a bit, I saw there was very little progress. I’m thankful for the gift that came in, so thankful, but I became overwhelmed with the thought of having to raise the large amount on my page. I had thoughts of inadequacy, and doubt…thoughts like ‘how in the WORLD am I going to raise enough money to support myself for a whole year in the mission field?’, ‘how is raising this much money even possible?’, ’who is going to give?’. I felt down. I felt discouraged.
Then I opened up my devotional, a well known one, ‘Jesus Calling’, and started to turn to January 23rd. As I flipped, I saw the first words on the day before, ‘Strive to trust Me….’. I couldn’t help but feel a pull to the words on that page. So I read. “Anything that tends to make you anxious is a growth opportunity. Instead of running away from these challenges, embrace them, eager to gain all the blessings I have hidden in the difficulties.” I need to trust Him in EVERYTHING. The small and the big.
As I continued reading it shared that “trust is like a staff you can lean on, as you journey uphill with Me. If you are trusting in Me consistently, the staff will bear as much of you’re weight as needed.” I couldn’t help but think about our trip to the Grand Canyon this past summer. Hiking that canyon was one of the greatest accomplishments my family can say we’ve done. We all agree. One of the things that helped us the entire way were our trekking polls. Without those, I don’t know how long it would have taken us to make it all the way. Whenever I needed a little extra boost, I put a little more force on my polls, and I made it. My legs didn’t do all the work, it was a combined effort with my hands, arms, core and mind to make it.
Trusting in God is the same way. Instead of putting all our trust in ourselves to get something done or in my case, try to raise a large chunk of money for missions, we should be putting it in the hands of the one who is our biggest supporter and fan. The one who walks along side us even when we try to do it on our own, standing right next to us waiting for us to let him give us a little boost. He is our protector, our guide, our supporter, our lover, our friend and so so much more. My discouragement tonight came because I was putting all the weight on my legs…I wasn’t giving God any opportunity to step in and give me a trekking poll to help. I will lean on the Lord. I will trust in the Lord.
”Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make straight your paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6
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