I mentioned in my blog yesterday that a lot of the ministry I felt the Lord calling me to this month was ‘me focused’. I struggled with that a lot at first.
- Am I narcissistic?
- Am I just lazy?
- How is something ministry when it’s just ‘me’ time?
- If I’m not always with people am I even being a missionary?
But a HUGE lesson I’ve learned on the race is that REST is necessary. SABBATH is needed. And TIME WITH JUST ME AND GOD is essential.
The Lord has told me that this month is going to be a lot of SELF REFLECTION, learning SELF DISCIPLINE and SELF CONTROL. He has already begun teaching me a little bit on self control and discipline by challenging me to do a fast. I started on May 1st and my fast is eating 2-3 pieces of fruit for lunch and nothing else. When He told me to do that, I didn’t think it would be too hard but, just 3 days in, I crave eating the endless Armenian schwarmas, french fries, or salad…things that my teammates have the choice to eat every day. It has not been easy like I anticipated and it has caused me to have to rely on Him for discipline and control and press into my relationship with Him.
The Lord has also begun to not only open ministry opportunities within my gym ministry, but He’s already used that to teach me self discipline.
I believe He will also teach me about who He’s created me to be in an even deeper way. He’s going to allow me to just sit in His presence and basque in WHO HE IS and who He’s created me to be.
If you’ve never sat with the Lord in the depth of who He is…freak, I encourage you to! It’s not always easy, but it’s ALWAYS INCREDIBLE!
He. Is. Amazing.
So along with gym ministry, I will be doing a lot of inner healing, practicing self discipline and growing in my individual relationship with the Father.
OOO that’s exciting! (It’s also a tiny bit terrifying!)
And, yeah…I put a photo of my team with ice cream because I love it…and I can’t have it during lunch time so I gotta get my fill even if it’s just through pictures! lol
Love y’all
