“Geronimo!” is often exclaimed aloud when people jump from a great height.
Dear Geronima,
We are jumping together.
I have no doubt we will squeeze hands and scream during the freefall. That we’ll apply salve to wounds along the way, and blow lightly on each other’s burns. Sometimes loving stings a little.
Last week, my [unknowingly prophetic] prayer was to learn to love unconditionally, without judgment or excuses. It’s easy to love those who we already like. But what does it look like to love people who we aren’t inclined to adore?
It’s not that you all aren’t ador-able. In fact, it has nothing to do with any of you. I don’t know Geronima yet; this is merely pre-emptive. In reality, we’ll each take turns learning to love when it’s hard.
I didn’t think through what that prayer meant- that in order to love like He does, I’d have to spend time loving even when I don’t feel like it. I’m essentially asking for situations where it will be harder to love than to resent. Our feelings are so fickle, but loving someone is a choice. The sweet sensation of love will grow as we repeatedly choose to love each other.
Unintentionally, my dear Geronimas, you will challenge me. Sometimes you will try, and I look forward to the feedback. Sometimes you’ll just be yourselves, and I will be tested. But it has nothing to do with any of you.
You all are an answered prayer. I ask for more love and He faithfully delivers- through you. I will get to experience Christ-like love in a new way because of Geronima. Thank you, at the very least.
I certainly can’t commit to doing it perfectly. At some point in the not too distant future, I’ll fall short. Don’t let any outward expression fool you- I’m not a freshly popped pop-tart. There is no “ding” of doneness for anyone here.
I’m in my element when I’m elbow-deep in conviction. Maybe you’re not. I can see how running from pain, rather than embracing it, is a natural inclination. But this team’s vulnerability &intimacy will only deepen as far as we each are transparent.
I’m not saying let’s pour out our stories and deepest, darkest secrets in the first five minutes of knowing each other. Maybe we will. Each of us individually will be led by the Spirit to share specific things at specific times. Honor Him in the process. I’m just asking for willingness to Go There with each other.
I didn’t mean to write something so heavy-hearted, but it’s kind of a big commitment- like how weddings, such joyous occasions, are a public proclamation of enduring many storms together. I guess we’re kind of getting married, Geronima. We’ll be a part of each other’s ups and the downs, and I want you to know that I choose in.
Because you each are ador-able. And I am able-to-adore.
Love,
Megan
