Every once in awhile, a moment comes along when you hear just the right thing at just the right time, and you know, without a doubt, it was meant for you.  Well, a few months ago, a friend posted a sermon snippet video on Facebook and I had one of those moments.  I’m not usually one to watch the endless barrage of videos populating my news feed, but that day, I clicked the link and my entire mindset was transformed.

From the moment I committed to the World Race, I had been praying for the Lord to prepare his blessings for me.  I prayed for financial blessing in raising nearly $17,000, material blessing of gear and supplies I would need for the trip, emotional and spiritual blessing to prepare my heart and mind for what the next year would bring.  I prayed blessings over my family to prepare them for this next season to which I essentially volun-told them.  I prayed blessings of time management, divine connections, creative inspirations, perfect conditions… At the end of the day, I suppose you could have boiled down my prayer to, “Lord, I pray for ALL the things.”  Not too much to ask.

Now, it is scripturally appropriate and good to ask for things in prayer.  The Lord tells us to ask him, our good Father, for blessings because he delights in caring for us.  This is how I was supposed to pray, right?

Enter 7 minute Facebook video that rocked my world.

https://youtu.be/LhxI49RGut0

Go watch it.  I’ll wait.

 

 

I know, right?!?!

The Lord did some serious work on my perspectives as I watched and I could feel in that moment, this was one of those messages that would change me forever.
 

“I’m not preparing the blessing for you, I’m preparing YOU for the blessing.  The blessing is ALREADY prepared!”  Preach, TD Jakes.

 

In typical Jesus-fashion, he turned everything I had been thinking and praying on its head.  Instead of praying for the blessings, I needed to pray that I might be prepared to receive the blessings he already had waiting for me from before I even existed.  Instead of praying about the fundraising, the relationships I would be making, the relationships I would be temporarily leaving, the ministry work I would be doing, the things I would learn, the places I would see, all these blessings I had been asking the Lord to prepare, I needed to pray for preparation of my heart to receive them; to bring my heart into agreement with the Lord’s work so I would be ready for all this as it came.  

I needed to pray for the table.  

See, you don’t put out the feast until the table is set and ready.  You don’t put new wine into old wineskins.  You don’t set a foundation until the ground has been cleared and leveled.  This is the work I needed to pray for in my own heart.  My focus changed from praying for the blessings to praying that in all that I said, did, and thought, I would be prepared for the blessing the Lord had for me.  Hear me when I say, this isn’t about reaching perfection before God will act, or earning my own place and status.  But it is about partnering with the sanctifying work God wants to do in me and intentionally creating space for that to happen so I might be ready when he moves.

One of my favorite Proverbs, 22:17, reads, “Listen to the words of the wise; apply your heart to my instruction.”  This has always stood out to me because it seems contrary to our usual understanding.  We say things like, “Those rules don’t apply to you,” or, “Now, apply that knowledge to your situation,” or, “That example applies to me.”  We are alway the subject to which all other things apply, never the reverse.  But, Proverbs 22:17 tells us to apply our hearts to the instruction of the wise, also known as scripture.  We are the ones meant to bend to fit the Word of the Lord.  We are to apply ourselves, our hearts, our thoughts, our feelings, our wishes, desires, hopes, hurts, fears, failures, dreams, gifts to the steadfast Word of God.  It is the unchanging mold to which the clay of our hearts must be shaped.

I no longer pray for God’s mold to fit me.  I pray that he would shape me to fit his mold.  After all, Isaiah 64:8 tells us, “And yet, O LORD, you are our Father. We are the clay, and you are the potter. We all are formed by your hand.”  Lord, prepare me for what you have in store, whatever it looks like.  Open my hands that you might give and take freely, all the while clearing the table for the feast you have prepared.  Shape me into the woman you need me to be as I enter this next season.  Work in me so I might work for your Kingdom.
 

Amen.

 
Well, at least, that’s what I thought before I went to training camp.  And then things flipped on their head again.  Read Part 2.  Hey, Jesus is nothing if not consistent!