God has shown up like crazy in my life today. That’s why in the middle of my walk I found a bench and am typing this awkwardly on my phone.
This is mornng I was reminded that I need to be in prayer about avoiding temptation and deliverance from sin. Somehow I had forgotten to pray for this. No wonder I was having to search like crazy for the escape route; I was going into battle without preparation.
After church this morning God was talking to me about obedience and fulfilling obligations. I was letting things slip because I was trying to do things in my own power. Self, I have no power without God supplying it. I will fail every time I try to do it myself. Rely on God. He is awesome and He’s gone before me and covered me.
This afternoon I presented my trip before a group of men that I’ve always looked up to and have taught me more than they realize. It was nerve-wrecking. I rambled and probably didn’t tell them all I should have. God took my fumbling obedience and blessed it. These servants decided to pay for about a third of my trip. I’m overwhelmed my God’s majesty, grace, and provision.
This evening I was in Bible study with the youth. They were learning about missional living and submission. God reminded me that the only way this life works is by surrendering all of me and submitting to whatever He has for me. Whether it be unexpected or hard or beautiful or all of the above His plan is ALWAYS BEST.
Now I was walking and listened to Chris Tomlin’s “White Flag”. I was so convicted of what I had been trying to hold onto on bargain with God over. So here is my submission and surrender for everyone to see.
I give up my plans, my dreams, my control, my desires, and my life. My dream of Africa is in Your hands. My desire for my own family I lay at Your feet. My job, my dwelling, my debt I give into Your loving care. I ask that You strip away all my fears, worries, and concerns. I’m not always willing to let those go easily. Jesus take ALL that I am. I want none of it. I only want You. Fill me with Your Spirit. Change me to be more like You. That’s all I truly desire though I don’t deserve it. I know You’re at work; keep going until I’m wholly Yours.
