When I was asked to squad lead, I asked God what He had to say about it after I accepted.
He told me to be myself.
That’s kinda hard sometimes. For me it seems as if my default is doing. And I know that I know I’m not to live that way.
Figuring out what to do when a racer looses something important (like a
passport..oops), or the keys to the ministry are no where to be seen, or
when someone comes to me with 20+ years of life’s joys and
disappointments and wants to talk… I’ve found that the only thought
that clouds my mind is, “I have no idea what to do.”
And to be completely honest…that’s been driving me absolutely nuts since I’ve launched with G-Squad.
I’m currently sitting in a lovely little bungalow in Honduras processing
my thoughts. And the thing that keeps coming to my mind, and the thing
that keeps coming up in conversation with my co-leaders is this, “just
be yourself.”
I’m remembering for the umpteenth time, that I’m pretty confident that
God’s not concerned with what I do, but with who I am. Who I choose to
be.
I am a woman of honor and integrity.
I am a woman of my word.
I am an honest woman that lives vulnerably.
I am a woman that lives and breaths because of and by way of Love.
And I am a woman that has hope. And I refuse to live as if I don’t.
That being said, I’m ready to head back to being with the Squad. I’m not
going to step back into the box entitled “law”, that is being offered
to me by the enemy. Because that’s not where I belong. I belong in grace
and truth and life.
I just needed a reminder I suppose.
On an even brighter note, I had a massive anonymous donation into my
account…and I couldn’t breath/wanted to cry when I saw it. I wanted to
cry because I, admittedly, had the WORST attitude when I checked my
support account. I only need $1,645.10 to be fully funded! I’ve been learning…no let’s use the proper word:
HUMBLED…by the people around me, to really ask for big things. I
haven’t been asking. Because I have had a lot of pride. Pride be gone in
the name of Jesus! I walk in expectant hope and faith!
Anyway, THANKS A MILLION TIMES OVER to those who are supporting me
financially and prayerfully! I continue to stand amazed and humbled. And
more importantly, it’s pushing me to be closer to my Father, which is
the point of my being on this planet…
