The Lord is stripping me of every selfish desire in my heart. He is asking me:
Am I a faithful, obedient, worthy servant and disciple for all the nations I am called to?
Only God can make my worthy…He is Good & I am not….
He is ” searching my heart, and searching my soul. To make sure that there is nothing else that I want more.”
Everything I hold onto. My comforts in my surroundings, with people, and even the little things. I believe God is checking to make sure that his Kingdom is the number 1 desire of my heart. To see if I am a worthy servant for all of his sons, and daughters that he is calling me to love with my whole spirit and being through the love of Jesus.
God is reminding me of his greatest commandment of all….
‘ Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and
greatest commandment.”‘ –Matthew 22:37
He didn’t just say part of my heart. He said ALL.
What you think you need, want or deserve is not always what God has in mind. He knows ultimately what is best because he is a loving Father.
Before training camp this week, God has already revealed some things to me that I was looking to for comfort when I should have been looking to Him. He has broken me down to tears. To the point of realizing I need to call on him for strength.
There comes a point when God will start to break you down. I don’t think that walking with Jesus is always easy. God never said that. I do know that God is near to the broken-hearted. I don’t mind God breaking me apart if it means being near & closer to Him. With that comes a joy, peace, and feeling that can not be explained.
In this life we will have troubles and we will face sadness. This is because we are never fulfilled until we are with God eternally. This is just our temporary living space if we are Christians and call on the name of Jesus. One day our grief will turn to Joy. Our tears to laughter. However, while we are here all our days are written in our Father’s book and we have great purposes to fulfill.
“So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy. In that day you will no longer ask me anything. I tell you the truth, my Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.”
– John 16:22-24 NIV
ONE DAY OUR JOY WILL BE COMPLETE. COMPLETE. PERIOD! : )
There is nothing else that I want more & I am so excited to be called to serve for the Kingdom of God. What an honorable calling…. I know even when I don’t have all the support of those around me, I can hear heaven cheering me on!
