"Clear the stage and set the sound and lights ablaze

if that's the measure you must take to crush the idols"

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"Take a break from all the plans that you have made 

sit at home alone and wait for God to whisper
Beg Him please to open up His mouth and speak
And pray for real upon your knees until they blister….."
I have this restless -unsettled feeling again. This ache to do something….anything.
Which is frustrating because literally a week ago I told a friend here that I felt like I was settling in.
Am I really this flighty or is this from you, Lord?
I'm realizing how much I crave familiarity and I crave to be known.
I've heard God's whisper since moving South and I haven't willing welcomed it and/or I've been confused by it. He's asked me to define our relationship again and He's asked me if it's okay if this season is different.
If this season is going to be different Lord and my natural instinct is to go surround myself with familiar things. What am I supposed to be looking for?
I was confused/still confused and I hit pause and remained poised for His next whisper. The next clue to what I should be doing here in Gainesville, GA.
Some where along the way though, I've not been so poised….in fact I've been rather lazy. I've been rather good at distractions. I've been rather good at letting idol's crowd His stage:
Anything I want with all my heart is an idol
And anything I can't stop thinking of is an idol
And anything that I give all my love is an idol"
I don't know what I am doing here. Or where I am going or how/when I am going to get there. What I do know is I’m being trained for something. Something big in the eye's of the kingdom….which in actuality may look rather small and unfamiliar to me. We are all going somewhere….. Father, train my eye's to see.
It's time to clear some idols.
What measures must I take?
God, Forgive me of my self love. Clear me off the stage.
God, I don't know what I am to strive for or what to work on.
Father, if I have made the pursuit of missions in my life an idol. Shut the lights off. If I have placed missions before You, Never let me travel again. If my goal of paying off my student loan has become an idol, set my financial priorities. If my desire for a husband would subtract from my love for you, let me remain single. Anything I've placed before you….clear it. Father, Please, I cannot do this alone.
The seasons are changing, I can feel it.
"Those who cling to worthless idols forfeit the grace that could be theirs." Jonah 2:8
Jesus…..Jesus…..Jesus….Refocus me.
I have no other words.
