There are so many ways in which my words have already fallen short of truly explaining various moments, experiences, feelings and adventures to friends and family throughout this past year. I know I owe more than a couple apologies for how few times I have updated all of you and for how seldom I have given glory back to the Lord for all he has done in my heart these last eleven months. Unfortunately, it seemed that every time I sat down to attempt to share with you – either about my surroundings or my faith – everything typed out cliche and void of the LIGHT I have really been encountering.
So I'm sorry, for so many things, but mainly for leaving you behind on a journey that has so drastically changed everything for me.
I hope and pray that (after I recover from a year long jet lag) many coffee dates, lunches and long conversations will be exchanged between us, to help in better describing what the Lord has walked me through. I look forward to lots of laughter and tears as I begin to share some of my favorite photos and most memorable stories with all of you. But until then, may I selfishly request some prayers as I face the craziness of re-entry…
My most recent prayers – or outcries really – have been for overwhelming peace and consistent truths as re-entry approaches. I find myself battling the lies of all the "shoulda, coulda wouldas" that try to wiggle in after a year long journey of trying to figure out so much about myself and the world around me.
"I shoulda blogged more (true), I coulda prayed more (always true) and given the chance again I woulda spent way more time walking in the freedom God has called us all too (very true)."
God has spent so much patient time this past year prying open my eyes to the many lies I had been holding on to about my past and what I thought that meant for my future. Through this He has so lovingly reminded me that I definitely DO NOT have to waste anymore time on regrets – He is sovereign and He is good. The perfect combination for where every anxious heart needs to make its home. Sure, I haven't done this entire year the way I would do it if given another go and I am sure that this next year there will be more lies of regret that try to creep in and consume my energy BUT I also have the beautiful truth of all God's promises over my life – He will finish the good work he started in me (Philippians 1:6), He knows the plans for my life (Jeremiah 29:11) and I am His (Galatians 4:7).
Sooo… as I prepare to be home in less than ONE week – please be praying:
that I am able to tightly grip onto all the truths that God has been walking me through
that I am able to walk in the confidence of sharing my faith with everyone around me, (something I have found a new urgency in while traveling to harder parts of this world)
And please keep praying that this upcoming transition is filled with joy and peace for both me and my family
As always, I love you all so very much and cannot thank you enough for all the support you've sent my way this entire year – I cannot wait to hear all that God has done in your lives since I've been away!! Prayers and love, Megs
