I didn’t intend on writing a blog today…
It is a gorgeous day in Texas, folks. I have been outside on my little porch soaking in this BEAUTIFUL spring day- sunshine on my face and birds chirping everywhere, what bliss. You know that the good season is here when you break a sweat drinking your coffee because it’s getting warmer outside! 🙂
As I was diving into the Word this morning, ants kept crawling around my feet, on my feet, up my feet, biting my back. ( not a swarm, I wasn’t in big danger, don’t worry; it was only a few 🙂 )
It was a little annoying, honestly. Then I stepped back and just pondered.
I have been reading in Matthew chapters 8, 9, and 10 this morning. In chapter 10, Jesus focuses a lot on the twelve apostles. He sends them out and tells them that persecution will come to them, explains the cost of following Him, the rewards, and that they should not fear. BIG STUFF. What they were created to do and how to live…
“So have no fear of them, for nothing is covered that will not be revealed, or hidden that will not be known. What I tell you in the dark, say in the light, and what you hear whispered, proclaim on the housetops. And do not fear those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather fear him who can destroy both soul and body in hell. Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not even one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father. But even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not, therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows. So everyone that acknowledges me before men, I also will acknowledge before my Father who is in heaven, but whoever denies me before men, I also will deny before my Father who is in heaven.” {Matthew 10:26-33}
Ants. Can you imagine being an ant? They are really little, I mean look-
Can you imagine what they see? This world is HUGE to us, big people; can you imagine how BIG the world is to an ant?
I definitely cannot, but pondering them this morning and pondering the verses the Lord put on my heart to read- I feel like an ant.
This world is huge and only seems to be getting bigger. I graduate from college in 20 days- TWENTY DAYS- PRAISE THE GOOD LORD! 🙂 A few days later, I will be serving at one of my favorite places on planet earth, Camp Living Stones. Then in January, I am leaving the country for 11 months to serve my Father and share His love and mercy and grace with people in search of it. This world is big.
Right now, I feel like an ant. I imagine they wander sometimes, right? I mean they are tiny. They see ground level. How do they find food? How do they know how to get back home to their families when they go off to find food? How do they see what is ahead when roaming? I guess ants have a lot of trust. They live day-to-day in trust, doing what they were made to do.
“And not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father…” God is pretty sovereign. By pretty, I mean completely. Imagine how many sparrows are in this big world. Now imagine how many ants are in this world. NOT ONE FALLS TO THE GROUND APART FROM GOD. What does that say to me?
To me, as I am on the porch in the sunshine, diving into the precious Word of God, carrying a lot on my shoulders- preparing for graduation and wrapping up a whole four years of my life in college, preparing to leave Kaufman, preparing for CLS, preparing for the World Race, FUNDRAISING and pondering how in the world all that money is going to come in, carrying some anxiety and some worry and questions- and God says-
{You are so valuable. I know about these ants. Not just these little ones aggravating you right now, but all ants- all ants on My earth. I know about them and when each falls to the ground. Am I not big enough to take care of you and your life?}
I feel like an ant often times, a tiny, little ol ant in a big ol world- wandering, trying to find my way and to listen to where I am being led and what paths the Father is leading me down- not missing Him in all the bustle of life, but making it ALL about Him. I can’t see very far ahead, just like a little ant- but they trust. They are obedient, doing as they were created to do day-by-day.
And I just might think that this is a point. TRUST. If I saw it all, why would I need to trust. And who better to trust, than the One who is sovereign over ALL.
Lord,
I am just a tiny ant in a HUGE world. Thanks for caring and making me valuable. Thanks for caring not just about me and how small I am- but about all the tiny things that are going on in my life that seem so huge. You are SOVEREIGN. You are sovereign over every piece. Thank you for being trustworthy. Thank you for the ants. Help me to live as the ants, not needing to see the whole picture, but just trusting you and being obedient to what you’ve created me to do. For this is what it’s all about anyway. 🙂
Amen.
“Therefore, my beloved brothers, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that in the Lord your labor is not in vain.” {1 Corinthians 15:58}
Don’t miss the ants, today, friends! 🙂
Because of His mercy,
Megan
