God often times speaks to me in songs. One song that has come up several times this past year is “I Will Follow” by Chris Tomlin. It says “where you go I’ll go, where you stay I’ll stay, when you move I’ll move. I will follow you. Who you love I’ll love, how you serve I’ll serve. If this life I lose I will follow you.”
This afternoon I was talking with one of my squad mates and he was praying over me. A vision he got was of a parrot, like the ones in Cracker Barrel, that repeat everything you say. He was describing it and saying that he sees me repeating the things that God tells me to others and loving them how I see God loving them. While he was talking this song started to play in my head and suddenly took on a whole new meaning.
It’s funny how much I thought I knew but this year I am learning that I had barely even begun to understand. There is so much more to this life than we will ever understand. I have been praying for years for God to use me. I have wanted to GO!! and wanted to follow him where ever he lead me, but I didn’t know what that meant. God doesn’t always call us to a cozy house and a typical American life. Some times he calls us to a country in the middle of Southeast Asia, in the middle of a city full of prostitution and darkness and despair. Whether it’s easy to live there and love the people around me or it’s hard, he gives me the strength to go there and love. More important than strength he gives us grace. He gives us grace to try and mess up, to have times that we fall flat on our face. In those moments he dusts us off and sits us back up and tells us to try again.
God asks us to follow, but in order to follow there has to be a leader. God is the best leader you could ever ask for. He has already been there, he knows more than we can ever imagine, and he has the map and directions for our life. He gives us everything we need and has the perfect example to follow. Why wouldn’t I want to mimic exactly what he does?
