As I was reading yesterday i read how our lives have seasons just like we do in nature. As I was reflecting on what I had read I realized how true this is. For the last couple of years it feels like spiritually I have been in a winter season. Everything was dormant in my spiritual life. I wasn't out sowing seeds, I wasn't haveing in renewal in my life, and I wasn't reeping any harvest of past works. Actually to put it more accurately I was in a drought. Then one day this past October while reading through my Bible and skimming through different passages all the thoughts and feelings that my life wasn't were it should be finally hit me. The full reality of how far I had gotten from God finally hit me. So there in my room I cried out to God to change my life, forgive me for all that I had done and to help me become the woman that he created. In my dispair he poured out love and mercy and let it rain in to my life.
My life began to blossom from this rain. It took some time for these affects to be shown on the surface but I knew instantly that I was different, that I was free to love God and to follow him in a way that I hadn't known in years. I had prayed that he would bring me back to how I once was, so full of joy and love that I radiated light, but God had different plans. He has taught me more than I even thought was possible then and has continued to change me in ways that I didn't even know needed changing. I would love to say that I never struggle but I can't. On those days I look to God even more for the strength to carry get through the temptations.
I feel like the weather the past few days is fitting because it has even felt like spring outside and it is only Febuary. Now that I am finally in the spring season once again I see growth and change all around me. Not only has God made me into a new creation and taken me through spiritual growth, He has also been clearing out the junk. When we begin to get rid of all the junk in our homes we call this Spring Cleaning, I find this ironically fitting to everything else that is going on in my life.
God and I have been planting seeds over the last few months and he has been making me a new creation daily. Some of these seeds are seed I will tend over the next few months as I prepare to leave for The World Race. While I am on the race I will be harvesting the seeds that I am planting and cultivating now as well as plant more seeds. God has been doing some amazing work in my life and I am excited to see what lies ahead.
God Bless.
