Christmas 2007=8 days on the beach+in the Philippines+WONDERFUL people+AMAZING time with my Lord
I came into the debrief/Christmas break knowing that God had something amazing planned. I thought this was kind of strange, because I don’t like the beach all that much and I was going to be away from my family for Christmas. But I said OK God. If you want to do something amazing, go for it! I’m here, and I’ll be used how ever You want me to. Right away I felt like the Lord was telling me, Megan I want you to spend this time being still and listening to my voice. So I spent the majority of my time on the balcony outside my room, reading, praying, journaling and listening to Him.
During this time God was revealing Himself to me more than I have ever felt Him before. Every morning God would wake me up before 7am, and I would sit outside looking out into the ocean admiring His beautiful creation. This is the best way I could think of to describe to you what God was speaking to me. This is an illustration that a girl from my September squad shared.
Imaging you’re at the edge of a cliff, looking down into the deep ocean. As you stand on the edge of the cliff you want to jump off, but you hesitate and ask yourself-What if it hurts? What if I slip? What if I look stupid? What if no one else is doing it? What if I don’t come up out of the water at the right time? Wait, I need someone to hold my hand…this isn’t something I can do alone…
These are the kind of questions I ask myself when God is asking me to do something. I always have a choice-I can chose to be hesitant, and not trust that God isn’t leaving me at the top off that cliff by myself. I could ask questions, and not have to faith that God knows what He’s doing. Or, I could just jump. take the risk. have the faith. know that God is right there beside me guiding my steps. knowing that He isn’t just going to leave me up there to make me figure all this out on my own. risking looking stupid. trusting that I do know God’s voice. he has given me power and authority in His name, the second I chose to live my life for Him. I can walk in confidence. He does want to use me. He will use me. He is using me.
p.s. Merry Christmas! I hope you all had a blessed one. Not being home was hard, but I know that God has a plan and purpose for me here. I love you!!! I can thank you all enough for the amazing prayers and support!
