Why
is it so hard for me to do the thing that makes me the most happy?
Why? I wish I knew why.
Starting the right tone for my day should be more important
to me than just shoving it off and opening my computer, or doing something as
equally monotone.
I am 100% capable of reading my Bible and writing in my
journal, but I choose to do anything but that.
It’s not like it’s a disciple to watch t.v. or be on
facebook all day.
So why does it seem like such a discipline to pick up my
Bible and read it?
I can spend hours during the week corresponding with friends
and acquaintances, but can’t seem to fit even an hour in to spend time with my
friend, Jesus.
One of my favorite
things to do is spend quality time with people, but how can these relationships
flourish if I don’t spend just as much, or more, time with The One that created
me?
I don’t deserve His love, but He gives it to me freely.
This is what I read in ‘My Utmost for His Highest’ today:
“We are not saved to
only be instruments for God, but to be His sons and daughters. He does not turn
us into spiritual agents but into spiritual messengers, and the message must be
part of us. As his disciples, our lives must be a holy example of the reality
of our message.”
Being a disciple comes with a cost…
Lord, teach me how to
be a true disciple.
