Along the journey the Shepherd puts the sheep down to see
the new strength being rebuilt. He sees the new strength, the new joy, and
fresh healing taking place. He sees them stumble through a few steps, their
gaze solely focused on Him. He smiles with delight and joy, his sheep is being
renewed. He picks the sheep back up and continues to carry them knowing the
moment and time he is going to set them down in the land he has been preparing
for them. He smells their coat, brushes their fleece, and embraces their body
sending a warmth and grace that covers their body. The sheep know their
Shepherd, they know his touch, and they long for their long walks soaking in
his presence….
A new joy is within me.
Me legs are healing and its time to test them out.
I feel the grass, I smell the field….
Where?
Another orphanage,
This time in Mozambique.
This was month 4 out of 6 at an orphanage. Do you think
there is something to this?
My team spoke prophetically into my life the first night we
arrived in Mozambique.
“The Lord is going to reveal the desires of your heart this
month, but they are going to be HIS desires. When you seek after the Lord and
find him, you will find the desires of your heart becase they will be his. But
don’t try to find these desires, allow him to reveal them to you….�
Don’t try? Well….I did for a few days, but then had a friend
remind me to STOP….and as soon as I did God took over.
I found myself with Aubrie (a fellow teammate) on our way to
pray for Rosita, an orphan who stays off the base. She was sick and needed
prayer.
(Me and Rosita on Christmas at the beach)
As we walked up I say a frail girl lying on a bamboo mat under a tree,
covered with a wrappa, shaking, taken with fever, weak, and alone. All of a
sudden my body was flooded with the Lord’s love and my heart BROKE. She had no
mother or father, she was sick, who does she go to for love and care Lord?
Me.
Oh Lord…..in that moment He overwhelmed me with love for his
daughter that overtook my entire body. I was speechless but was asked to pray.
I managed to get a few words out but throughout the entire prayer I just felt
God’s heart, I felt his touch.
I opened my eyes, looked at Aubrie with my stomach in knots,
still without breath behind my words and just looked at her in shock with joy
covering my entire face.
“I’m going to have an
orphanage some day.�
What? Did I really just say that?
Yes.
She just smiled and laughed with me celebrating the joy and
promise the Lord just flooded within me. My stomach churned because it felt so
real, but I was filled with an unexplainable joy!
This is really what you created me for huh?
Yes, my beloved. To
love the lost and abandoned. To cover them with my love.
I finally felt in step with my Father. What I could create
for my life would be good, but what he was asking me to do was GREAT. It is far
beyond me. It was something I NEVER expected for my life.
Me? An orphanage? Children?
Yes my beloved.
Okay, let’s do it! You lead the way.
Just wait and trust me.
Okay.
My heart filled with more and more joy throughout the month
knowing I was finally in step with my Father. My legs were getting stronger, I
was in my new valley…..
(Just making fun faces with Fatima)
or so I thought…..
(Part 4 up next……)
