Come and meet with me my beloved…continue my story…..
So here I am at 1:30am in Thailand to “finish” the story and update you all….
The Philippines, March 2, 2011.
God BLEW UP my world!
I thought the blog series ended after Part 4. I was in my
new pasture, settling in to “orphanage,� but God had more.
The Shepherd always has MORE.
March 2, I sit talking to a teammate about embracing what God had
laid out before her through her words, and God spoke directly back to me.
Megan you need to do the same.
Instead of saying that an orphanage was the last thing I
thought I would do with my life, I needed to embrace the vision and have my language reflect that. I needed to thank the Lord for that
opportunity and have my words reflect the excitement He had birthed within my heart. And as soon as my heart shifted and I spoke that out…..
BOOOOMMMMM!
In a soft gentle tone, I hear my Dad say,
Megan how about a
spiritual orphanage?
How about leading your generation into spiritual adoption.
Into sonship?
BOOOOOOOMMMMM!
I sit silent in humility.
I heard a word from the Lord
in November (see part 1) –
“I’ve made you for
orphans, for the lost and abandoned…You will have an orphanage…Love Megan, that is all I’m asking you to do.”
Did God ever say an orphanage for children?
No.
Did God ever say I would have a building?
A country?
A house?
No.
God was asking for my heart, for my obedience.
I created the story. I created the plan. I thought that because I had spent 8 months at orphanages on this race that He was being specific, but when is God ever that obvious?
What he was showing me was that we are all
orphans. We are born spiritual orphans because of our spiritual inheritance
from Adam and Eve. We are all lost and abandoned.
He showed me the heart of an orphan. He showed me how we strive for love and acceptance in so many things. He showed me that we have a choice. We can sit in our rejection and pain or we can live in the love that if FREE that surrounds us. Can we see His love or are we bind to it?
I was blind to it. I knew about it. I was taught about it. But I wasn’t living in it.
He pursued me through His beautiful children.
He showed me His love through His children.
He loved me through His children.
He spoke through His children.
And He called me
His child.
I crawled into my Father’s lap and felt His embrace on this race.
8 months at orphanages, community, and God’s loving pursuit have forever changed my life.
BOOOOOOMMMMM!
This journey of the heart has caused me to realize that I don’t have all the answers.
And that all God was asking for was my obedience. If I would have humbly
said yes right away and not worried about the details he could have possibly
spoken more about my generation and sonship sooner. But what I’ve also learned
is that God is all about the process.
God walked with me through a process. It wasn’t a process of
just being obedient to this call on my life it was a process of learning a
lifetime and lifestyle of obedience and surrender.
A life of surrendering my expectations for
His desires,
His
plan,
His love.
A life of trust, faith, and dependence.
How many PARTS will there be to this series?
I don’t know.
I know this is
Part 5 and a new revelation. I know the journey continues tomorrow, it’s a journey
of the heart. It’s the work the Lord is doing within me.
It’s HIS work.
He knows.
All I’m doing is following my shepherd, listening to his
voice, and taking in the beauty of all the places He is leading me to and thru.
What about YOU?
What is the journey of your heart?
What work is God doing within you?
Are you letting HIM be the author?
Have you embraced His love? His goodness?
Lord, I pray that you examine our hearts and that you rid us
of anything that is taking your place. Let us see what is keeping us from
following you, from letting you be the author of our story. Lord let us live
lives of submission and surrender. Let us trust you with everything and rejoice
as we follow you the adventurous path you’ve set before us!
