Today I woke up questioning God’s promises.
I found my thoughts entertaining the question,
is what
God promised even possible?
Are you really going to provide a car for me when I have
no money?
Are you really going to provide all I need for school
this fall? How?
When will I find community here in Flushing?
I found myself questioning God’s faithfulness and character.
The culture I’m in (the Michigan, Gennessee County, US, etc
culture) says that I have to fight for what I have. That I have to work for it
and that I will never have enough. That I will live in lack and insufiiciency
and live as an orphan.
But I know different.
I’m placed here to plant something different.
To be a
part of the change.
This culture says God is not big enough, isn’t trustworthy, and isn’t present in the mess we are currently in. And today as I woke, I agreed with that.
I found myself believing that all my “problems� somehow I
had to fix. I found myself picking up my burdens and trying to carry them.
They were heavy, they seemed impossible to move. But I tried. I tried to move them by worrying
in a tiring and emotional effort. I couldn’t seem to see beyond them when I looked at them.
But I know better.
Don’t look to the right or to the left, keep your eyes on me. You will not be shaken.
I turned on my worship music.
I got out my book of promises.
I opened His Word and I turned my gaze to my Creator as I brought my burdens to his cross, to his
feet.
We are made to worship.
No matter what we may feel is
reality, looking at God and praising His name and goodness brings true Kingdom
reality back into perspective.
Breathing out, exhaling, and resting in his
presence.
We are in control of our reality. By what we speak, in our
minds and out loud.
I chose to speak God’s Word out and let it swirl within my
Spirit as I rested with Him. I didn’t fight with sweat I simply chose to believe God’s word over the thoughts swirling in my mind.
I simply chose to live in peace rather than in chaos and
confusion.
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give
to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be
afraid. (John 14:27)
I chose to live in abundance and provision rather than in lack and
insufficiency.
And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19
I chose to say, I trust you, and to live in faith believing God
is who He says He is.
Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. Hebrews 10:23
Sometimes I trust you, I trust you, I trust you….is what we have to speak over and over lining up our heart with our Spirit.
God is who he says He is.
God is faithful.
He is a God of abundance and provision.
Nothing is too big for our Creator.
We are to hold on to the promises he has spoken to us. In the days where they just don’t seem possible, wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. Psalm 27:14. He is never late in fulfilling his promises.
For those who may find themselves in this same position today, tomorrow, or in 6 months, I pray that the God of hope may fill you with all joy and
peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of
the Holy Spirit. (Romans 15:13)
Enjoy this song and a few lyrics from a song, Come to Me by Bethel Music & Jenn Johnson as you seek Him FIRST. 🙂
Come to me, I’m all you need, I’m everything, I’m all you
need, I’m your everything.
I am your anchor, in the wind and the waves. And I am your steadfast, so don’t
be afraid. Though your heart and flesh may fail you, I’m your faithful strength
and I am with you
wherever you go.
Come to me, I’m all you need, I’m everything, I’m all you need, I’m your
everything.
Don’t look to the right or to the left, keep your eyes on me
You will not be shaken, you will not be moved. I am the hand to hold, I am the
truth, I am the way. Just come to me, cause I’m all that you need.
